Went out with bf and his friends yesterday.
L4D2 is out!

Labels: Its time for me to be mature. If i would to be fussy about any little things in life, I wouldnt be enjoying my life at all. Set low expectation for each day.

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘

I no longer hold high expectations. I will let things go day by day, and let things end day by day. I found myself no longer significant to whoever think so, and I dont think i want to make or prove myself being one again. I dont want to attract any attention again, because i'm wanting for one auto one ;D Its okay if some other non-living things replaced my piriority, cause ultimately, its just you and IT. Not me already. By th time you know my importance, i might have left or might no longer bothers you as much or perhaps you wouldnt even notice that the alive one you once had, doesnt belong to you anymore.

At times, my own perspective of r/s always remind me, no doubt, always the same as the one i had since secondary 2. Perhaps, if i am able to accpet th torture i am facing now, i wldnt feel that bad if things really happpen. All i need is one that is able to be able to read my mind. Thats all.

I got all th happy memories, and thats what that makes r/s valuable.

Memories stay, love stops.

JOB

Shoulder hurts today. Next time i dont want to post about him already. Must fair, if he dont post, then i will refrain myself from mentioning him in here ;D

I LOVE MYSELF ;D

Going out with tortoise, snail and casper on wednesday i guessss ;D misss them.

Came back from camp two days ago. Was pretty a lethagic one i should say. Had rope course on the first day over at the Changi Adventure Site, then did Night Activity( Amazing Race) at ECP. We walked for 21km starting at approximately 11 and end at 2plus. Sleep by 3plus and woke up at 5plus in th morning. Not sufficient la. Went to BB Campsite for th second day. A better campsite ;D Gala night and light off at 12plus ;D Break camp on th last day, bf fetched.

To summaries a lill more. Camp, Rope course, Rafting, BBQ, Gala night, Night walk, Changi, Boon Keng, Sembawang, Sun plaza, Prawn Noodles, L4D, Kent Bridge Park, Changi Village, Changi Jetty, Bishan, Jurong, Nasi Lemak, Disappointed, Miss Call..

The First 5 Words i see :  SECRETS, HATE, SUICIDE, KICK, LICE

Friday, schooling day. Didnt know school will be as bad, if i knew it, i wouldnt have be there to witness it.

Everyone got their status, be it promoted to Year2, Advance to Year2, Retent in Year1, Exit from school or Superannuated for retainees.

Peers around me got kinda good news yesterday. Its either promoted or advance, and no doubt, everyone is satisfied with th result.

Today, shahirah and nita got a new status letter, changing from advance to retent.

Saiful, shahirah and nita, I so much you guys. Many 09B2's cried. Its pretty disheartening to see that, from unable to adapt to new school, to able to adapt with the help of friends and then loving them and loving school. And next second you were told that they had to leave and its time to get your own life out of it. Derrrrrrr, who gonna accept that?  

Only hanis and I promoted in this clique, its not fun without them already. And I'd been trying hard to curb my emotions. Friends, if only we got a chance, i gonnna force you guys to study daily ): I'm starting to question myself if i should continue with my Alevel pathway.

Labels: Blogging the truth is then a live journal. Let people know if you are happy or sad. No use writing to good things only, cause not only you are lying to your readers about being blissed, you are lying to yourself all along. Lying that you are happy, but how much exactly are you?

Sore throat for few days.

Yesterday. Supposingly, meeting boyfriend for mid-night movie at th Cathay but changed to Woodlands because boyfriend's co are going over there for movie. Theres soooo much movies that i've not yet watch. Th sister's keeeper, Julie and Julia, Meatballs, Coraline(3D). Manymanymany, but reached Woodlands Cathay, none of my prefered movies are showing but some other M18 shows, and some that is not to my preferance la! Then in th end, th co wanted Pandorum, and i guess was to go along with me because of my age, thanks :x They wanted Halloween(M18). So pandorum, thriller show.

Aha, then my boyfriend asks me not to watch because ..... :x Went afterall. For th 110mins, i was covering my ears and pulling my boyfriend's collar. Moverover, i even thought of running out of th movie. Wdf, i'm not cut to watch thrillers and horrors or sore movies. Storyline, kinda blur but graphic is worth ;D Supper at King Albert Park and back to Jurong Safra for lan. Baby said i improve for L4D, i sucks in that, but in order to play with boyfriend, i learning okkkkk ): 伟大!

Boyfriend went chatting with aaron till 6plus in th morning, and i was waiting for his text to inform homed. In th end, i waited for his text from 4plus to 6plus ): Asshooooooole..

Wanted to visit doctor today but mom said many clinics will close unless i go specialist. Sore throat no people visit specialist ma, so went to sinsei instead. Gulp down bitter stuff and now i feel better. Boring SUNDAY, as usual.

NO SCHOOL ON MONDAY ;DDD

i guess i'm here to face and to accpet the fact that i'm not suitable to be relationship.

Whenever i thought things make were going well, he will make things bad.

I guess i'm not up for all this kind of things.

I will just let days go by, and see how things go.

Labels: To th state when nothing could solve his heart ( who he wants to think).

Who can be as hurt as me, not him definitely.

I'm feverish, I'm dead-beat for nonsense.

School yesterday was uber sucks. Had CPR in th morning and we met a very fucked up voluntary who thought us CPR. She was biased, was loud, was bitchh. Maybe not as bad, but maybe we had a lill to be blame. So early break, and went to coffe shop, along with around 10 people. Then met up with some who got out of school to CSC bowling. 16 people bowling la :D Rushed back for interhouse at 1.30. Under th sun for hours without playing. LOL. In return, slight sunburn.

Went shawn house for ps3. bad time management la, gonnna be late for dance. Thanks goodness, boyfriend fetch me at batok and speed me home ;D and he sent me to dance tooo. And i got there th earliest. Urghhhh.

Didnt go to school today, wasnt feeling very well. Boyfriend cant wake up either. So we met up for MC ;D mcmcmcmc. I told doctor i was having PMS(bloat). Meal over at Areana's Burger King. Went home aftermath. Boyfriend dont want bring me along to meet buyer at Vivio. He said later still need send me home, time consuming ): Whatever he says, i'm not th rider of bikeeeee. Saw schoolmates in bus while driving pass militay institute.

Out of a sudden, i want a room to myself ):

Been out with mom and relatives when boyfriend went to Thai. Novena Church, Bukit Batok, Westmall, Queensway, Ikea.

Boyfriend came home in th evening yesterday and i met up with him at night ;D 3days seems long okkkkk. Then met up with his friends and lan-ing over at Jurong Safra, then to Henderson Wave. Didnt went to th real attraction, but th carpark of that place ;D Suppossingly, we were going to Changi Airport for burgers but went Holland instead. Homed by 5. Happy Sunday!

Today, boyfriend didnt go schoool. Accompany him to take medical certificate. Jurong Polyclinic, and saw EngHeng ;D I can't regconise him already ): Met his bike buyer to look at his bike aftermath. Koufu at Piooner Mall then to Yew Tee for aaron and yujing. Boyfriend brought me to Tuas to view his parents' coffee shop. I find Tuas remoted. Thats it. Thats my Monday ;D

School tomorrow. Doing CPR. Dont want go but ultimately, persuade by friends. Friends are such a _________ :x LALALALALA.

 He sleeps and sleeeeps and sleeepppps. This is boyfriend ah

Yawen's 19th Birthday on OCT04.

YATI : RMB, 10 YEARS LATER 's PROMISE

 Taken before he cut his hair ;D

Oh shitty day today. Didnt have proper sleep last night because was anxious about boyfriend's trip to Thai tonight. Was flipping here and there. Not willing to go for school but mom wants me to go since its on Fri, after marking day. School was nothing. Got new timetable, guess what, school system really sucks, want us to study even after end-year-exam. OMQ, wheres justice uh?

Nominated by dance teacher in charge for the Student  Leadership Experiential Camp in nov9 to nov11. However, conditions applied, must be able to go to Year2. LOLS. So no point nominating, cause i might retain ;D Was sent by dance in charge for some other exchange programmes. I will be accompanied by a malay dancer. Awkward.

Urghhh, suddenly feel no confident in promoting to Year2. If i never get to promote now, dooooommm.

Boyfriend went Thailand with family ;D He will be back by Sunday but nevertheless, i'm gonnna misss him like maddd. Guess he is proud by buying a carton of cigg at Changi for  20dollars, asssssss. Lonely Friday night, and so is my poor Saturday  ): So shld be going to Novena church or whatsoever with family on Saturday instead because I'm going to spend my day with boyfriend when he comes home on Sunday ;DD

Boyfriend's on plane now. Should be reaching appro 1am.

Friday night, why are you passing so slow! Spending my night with Cafe World, Episode1 on 'Please take care of my young lady' and blogging. How pathetic. Alright, shallnt complain that much cause its a nuisance for you guys ;D

 *Shoulders aching, boyfriend*